Lodestone..

Familiar Pull by MNCRiami

I cannot say if the feeling is mutual.
But I do not expect it to be.
'Cause I do not know your side.
I only know mine though..
I'm not even sure if I'm fully acquainted with it.
I cannot even discern what I must feel or how I must embrace this bewilderment.
I feel a familiar strangeness within--the one I felt aeons of aeons ago..
when I first felt my heartbeat rise and fall in rhythm.
Why do I have to experience such tipsy-turvies again?
So who is to blame in all these?
Is it me..who is being dragged almost effortlessly into your gravity?
Or is it you who overtly or covertly drag me into your flames?
Is there really a need for anyone to blame?
Or is it just all a misunderstanding?
A treachery perhaps, played on me by the most wretched of my brains?
How unfathomable this is..
Though it doesn't cost so much of me nor a bit of a pressure.
It's not a pain in my heart.
It does not destroy my core.
It just put into distraught reasons and logic remaining.
And slowly.. ever so slowly pulls me into something currently unknown.

The last chapter is closed..or partially, I guess..

PUP North Wing, 6th floor by MNCRiami

I did not want you to fall for me just because of the things I did for you--
for the songs I wrote and sang, the compositions I made, and the other things I silently just did to describe my feelings for you.
I wanted you to fall for me for just how you saw me back then.
I wanted you to fall in love with me naturally.
Not just as gratitude for my deeds..
But well it didn't happen.
I understand though..
Things just don't happen as you expected them to be..
And someone won't just easily and suddenly feel the same way for you.

After all those predicaments involving me concerning you..
I did opt to fall out of love from you..
I also chose to move on and let you go..
..that I never anticipated would happen after years of just regarding you..

Now that all are said and done..
All those things I did for you (which were also for me)
were just a part of my memory..
a part of my life history
a part of what you were to me.
It is not my current reality anymore.
All I have with me now are the remnants of those sentiments I had for you...