They grew on mutual feelings
They got married
Father went abroad
Eldest brother was born
Father went back home
Elder brother was born
Father went back abroad
They prospered even more
Father went home
She was born
Father never went abroad again
They stayed in the rurals
They lived by livestocks and farm
Life got a little rude
They lived on some average
They were played upon
They were stupefied by 'parasites'
They were forced to leave
They went back to the urban
In the place where her parents first met
Where her life started
She started to learn
She graduated kinder
She started to show up to the world
She realized her talents
She cultivated most of them
She graduated elementary with pride
She started high school a bit shocked
She had adjusted
February 1,2007 her father passed away
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She was devastated
She almost threw away her life
She lost her drive
Her marks declined
Her rank lowered
She was even more subdued
Burnout, she buried herself in darkness
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A peculiar person came
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They grew accustomed to each other.
She accompanied her in the dark
She became clingy and obsessed with this person.
The person got exasperated.
The person walked away.
She was left alone in her world.
Darker, it upshot.
Swimming in ebbing weariness, she drowned.
She almost died, but did not.
Came along her confidants.
They gave her heaps of helping hands.
She graduated high school.
She started college.
New life, she thought.
New people, new concerns.
New love, she also hoped.
Love interests came and went.
No one committed.
No one stayed.
Along, her past came back.
She thought she was stronger, but suddenly cracked.
She duelled again with her lovelorn agonies.
She lost.
And she let it be.
She aimed not to care any longer.
She lie low.
Senior year came.
It was all too fast, she recalled.
She examined her heart.
She looked back, not an ache anymore.
Her beloved past showed up.
She mingled.
They grew as real friends and such.
She analyzed things again and all.
She realized she has moved on.
A man she has been acquainted with all along
Came along closer and gave her some songs.
They learned they weren't so acquainted at all.
He brought peculiar lights to her dimmed world.
A companion has found her in her dark-some core.
They talked and talked and talked
Of blabbers, of fancies, and of significant things in this world.
They connected like no one else did, as for her.
She realized they have parallel worlds.
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They have parallel worlds.
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Yes they do. But do parallel worlds ever really meet?
That,she does not know. But in geometry, if my memory is right, they never do.
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He has someone special.
That person is really special.
'Cause she admires her too.
He would really like her..love her, she thought.
No doubt about it.
Because she does like her too, as she is.
She's not into girls anymore, no.
She just really adores her.
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But HE also adore her.
A lot.
And she thinks the girl likes him too.
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So where did it lead her?
Where is it leading her to?
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To her inspiration.
It gave her an inspiration.
She accepted it.
It aches a bit on her chest
But only a bit
'Cause she like them both
so what more to do about it?
She doesn't cry for it, no.
She just continued being a friend...
And continues.
She liked it more than what her heart suggests.
She knows her feelings would only lead to futile ends
If she entertained it.
She just drew her fantasies.
She just wrote songs.
She sang her heart out every time aches attack.
It was just an infatuation, she convinced herself.
It wouldn't last, she added.
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And yet..
Slowly..
She loses faith in the thought that she would ever find
somebody..
Or if she would ever be found by someone
who's gonna want to stay and never go.
A hopeless romantic, yes, she is.
But somewhat fades in the background.
And yet..
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It is also too early to quit the hoping and the waiting.
She is still alive.
And the story continues on.
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